A Bit of Time

Sooooo, it's been awhile since I've posted. Life. It gets crazy sometimes. However, as a blogger, or someone trying to be a "blogger," I'm pretty sure you can't let life get in the way of posting.:)

Anywho - I even skipped posting on my BIG 20 YEAR milestone!!! Can you believe it? Probably, since I hadn't posted for a month anyway....I digress.

I think one of the reasons I hesitated to post is because it is such an odd thing to sort of celebrate. When I had my 10 year milestone of diagnosis, my sweet husband sent me a dozen roses to work (or was it 10 roses) - anyway, you get the idea. He congratulated me on taking care of myself b/c he wants me around a long time. VERY. Sweet. But, when co-workers would ask about it, it was odd to say - "Oh, the roses? I got those to celebrate 10 years with diabetes." Sort of a conversation killer.

So, I struggled with posting. Because, the truth of it is, with every passing year, I wonder what my eyeballs, kidneys, and toes look like. You know - those areas of our bodies with teeny tiny blood vessels that are getting scraped by the sugars that are too high and cling to our red blood cells. What do they look like after 20 years??

BUT, I do know that every Dr. visit, they say I'm doing well, and that if I keep up this style of care, God willing, I should live a long life. Soooo, then I want to celebrate. Because, I have, and I control, and I dominate this disease that is in my body. One day, it may take it's toll. But every day I get up and test and choose less carbs over more carbs at lunch, or I have an entire day when my sugars are right around 100, or I stay with an exercise plan and see the need for my Lantus decreasing - that is victory. That is conquering. And for every bit of time that I choose to conquer and not ignore this disease, that is worth celebrating.